2024 Rewind: EDGE Interview: Claybourne Elder Wants to Be Bad

EDGE: Tell me a bit about your background.

Claybourne Elder:: I was born and raised in Utah. I'm the youngest of eight kids and I was raised Mormon in a very conservative Mormon community. I was attending BYU when I came out and subsequently was kicked out. I finished my degree and came to New York to be an actor and I've been in New York for 15 years.

EDGE: What was your experience growing up gay in Utah?

Claybourne Elder:: I feel like I had a very lucky experience for two reasons. One is because I have parents who are really incredible and open-minded. For them, it was a simple question "Do we love our kids or not?" The one thing my mother always has said to me is, "I don't really care. I just want you to be a good person." One of my older brothers is gay as well, so I always had kind of a partner in crime even when we were young. We didn't know about each other until college. It felt like there was somebody I was like that made it much easier to grow up.

Growing up in a very conservative community is the same as growing up in a conservative community whether it's in Minnesota or Florida. You are an outsider in a lot of ways, and I experienced some bullying and feelings of just being very different than everyone. I think sometimes it halted my growth and, in some ways, made me grow up faster. I have a complicated relationship with Utah, but I still love it very much.

EDGE: You will be making your NOLA series bow on April 18th for one show only. Tell us about the show.

Claybourne Elder:: The show is called "I Want to Be Bad." The thing about me being bad is pretty funny because I am generally known for being a nice gay, a very nice guy, and a do-gooder. My "bad" is not as bad as most peoples' "bad". So, it's sort of a joke that I'm known as being this kind of 'golly gee willikers goody two shoes' guy. Part of the show is about how I've always wanted to be worse than I really am, but I also have sort of a dark side underneath that people don't know about. It's funny because I've heard is it appropriate, it is mean, or am I going to be offended? It is none of those things. The show is about how I started doing this show right after I finished doing "Company" on Broadway. Being on the road for long periods was not what I wanted to do as a dad. It's much harder to take shows out of town because I don't want to be away from our son. Creating this show was a good way to do something of my own.

When I started writing it, I knew that I wanted to write something that wasn't just another cabaret show. I really wanted to write something meaningful to me, so I wrote the show first and then I added the songs. There's no narrative to it. It's like a standup show where I weave in and out of topics, but it is generally about goodness and my desire to sometimes be badder than I am.

EDGE: If you could be bad, what is something bad you'd want to do?

Claybourne Elder:: That's a great question. I wouldn't steal or hurt anybody's feelings. What's something bad? I guess eat bad things. That's just bad for me. If I did do something bad it would be hard to admit, because I wouldn't want anyone to know.

EDGE: What can people expect when they come to this show?

Claybourne Elder:: Again, when I started writing it, I desired to write something a little more meaningful than just a history of my life and some songs from my career. So, I thought, what are the three things I'm most scared to talk about in front of people? This show is very honest and sometimes very emotional for me because I am going to talk about those things. There will be a lot of laughs. I hope people will laugh. There'll be some very dirty jokes and some very dirty stories I tell about my life and my sex life. In addition to that, some very heartfelt things about my belief system and being a dad. Hopefully, the audience will see something in themselves, learn something, and feel something.

EDGE: As a fan of Sondheim, what are some characters from the Sondheim canon you'd like to play? And some of your favorite of his songs?

Claybourne Elder:: He gave me my first job ever, which was in "Road Show," which was his second to last new musical. My first job ever in New York was working with him every day. And because of that and because I love his work so much, most of the work I've done in my professional career has been his. I've performed in "Passion," "West Side Story," "Sweeney Todd," and "Sunday in the Park with George" four times. There are so many of his songs that I love and there are so many of his songs that I have loved to sing in front of an audience. I love to sing songs that are not meant for a person who looks or sounds like me. To take his songs that were written for women or other characters and reimagine them a little bit is so much fun. I believe he was so great at allowing his work to be reinterpreted, and it's one of my favorite things to do with it.